Okay, I am totally going to go into deep feeling mode now. I feel like talking about the current situation with my family. So, Rob is coming home next week due to the oncoming hurricane. That's all fine and dandy if I didn't have to deal with the current situation. I am sick how things are with Mom, Dad and I. They can go along and think that everything is "okay" and think that we still have a fine relationship. But guess what? I don't believe that everything is just great. Straight up, everything is fucked up. I am thoroughly disgusted by the reaction I got from my family. And I personally feel as though I am ready to pack up and get the fuck outta Dodge. I believe that my life currently means nothing to some of the people I supposedly mean everything to.
I knew from a young age that I was going to be that one person in the family that only sees the family at holidays, this whole thing has only made me want to make that feeling come true. I am feeling very distant from the people that are supposed to love me regardless of anything, what/who I do. And I really don't know where to go from here. I guess you could say that I am extremely concerned with how this little incident will affect my relationship with all of my family.
Speaking of my relationship with my family, I must say that I am not necessarily in love with my family. Honestly, I greatly dislike pretty much all of them. They annoy me. They make me pissed off because they are ignorant and just overall bigots. That is what really angers me about my family. I feel/believe that I am self-sustaining. Enough to the point that I think I would be okay on my own. But whatever, I don't foresee myself moving out anytime soon...although it won't be a bad idea.
I really do not this extra stress coming into my junior year. I have too much to worry about already. Between school, standardized tests, high goals for swim, getting through the season without any problems, along with my interesting APUSH class, I don't really think I need one more thing to worry about right now.
I shall continue to send you updates via the amazing Blogger service.
CJD
Speaking of my relationship with my family, I must say that I am not necessarily in love with my family. Honestly, I greatly dislike pretty much all of them. They annoy me. They make me pissed off because they are ignorant and just overall bigots. That is what really angers me about my family. I feel/believe that I am self-sustaining. Enough to the point that I think I would be okay on my own. But whatever, I don't foresee myself moving out anytime soon
I really do not this extra stress coming into my junior year. I have too much to worry about already. Between school, standardized tests, high goals for swim, getting through the season without any problems, along with my interesting APUSH class, I don't really think I need one more thing to worry about right now.
I shall continue to send you updates via the amazing Blogger service.
CJD
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