I had thought that after 4 months, I would be over the whole swim situation, I guess I was wrong.
When I heard the great song "Unwell",by Matchbox Twenty, I quickly realized that I wasn't over it; I merely convinced myself that I was. I think the song and the idea of my first swim meet after the "incident" made me really think about what happened. And that's not good. It saddened me enough to want to just drive,up and down Lakeshore Road for a hour.
It kinda makes me sad that I had someone that I thought I could trust and lean on betray me like that. I don't even think the worst part was him doing it, I think it was the relationships and the auora between the team as a whole, and myself. I had actually started to make myself something, and actually became something bigger than me; And one man, nay,boy, tore all of it away.
I truly do not understand what he thought he was doing when he did what he did. It was stupid. Granted, me telling was apparently also stupid. But I guess I thought he would have the decency to not announce it. I mean really.
I'm glad I got that off my chest. I think I now just need a good hug from my best friend Nater and I will feel better.
So I leave you with this...Be careful who you trust, you don't know who is gonna turn out to be a fake.
When I heard the great song "Unwell",by Matchbox Twenty, I quickly realized that I wasn't over it; I merely convinced myself that I was. I think the song and the idea of my first swim meet after the "incident" made me really think about what happened. And that's not good. It saddened me enough to want to just drive,up and down Lakeshore Road for a hour.
It kinda makes me sad that I had someone that I thought I could trust and lean on betray me like that. I don't even think the worst part was him doing it, I think it was the relationships and the auora between the team as a whole, and myself. I had actually started to make myself something, and actually became something bigger than me; And one man, nay,boy, tore all of it away.
I truly do not understand what he thought he was doing when he did what he did. It was stupid. Granted, me telling was apparently also stupid. But I guess I thought he would have the decency to not announce it. I mean really.
I'm glad I got that off my chest. I think I now just need a good hug from my best friend Nater and I will feel better.
So I leave you with this...Be careful who you trust, you don't know who is gonna turn out to be a fake.
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