"And I won't back down, no I'll stand my ground."

Well I wrote up a whole nice long post, but for some reason, only the title got posted, so here I try again. I can't guarantee that it will be as good as the last one because I'm not fueled with emotions now. But here it goes: If someone could explain to me why high school has to be so damn complicated, I would love to hear it. Either way, I would also love to know why out of 2100 students, I was chosen to be the subject of a rumor. I mean really, what the hell did I ever do? But anyways, rumors spread fast on a small team. Unfortunately. I don't even think the rumor was the hardest part, I think trying to convince 23 guys that a very well liked senior member was lying was the hardest. This senior that I thought was my friend, I was wrong. I guess one can think that dealing with rumors is easy, its not. And if you have ever been affected my one, subject or not, the pain still stays with you for life. I don't think that people truly realize the impact that rumors have on the subject. The sleepless nights, hours of headaches, slipping grades, loss of friends, even hours crying, and that's not even considering the affect on the subjects friends that are trying to get him through this. After my experience with rumors, I have decided that I will never start or spread a rumor, ever. For I have realize what it can do to people. It all happened within a week, started on Monday, I became aware of it on Wednesday, lost some friends on Friday, and started damage control on Saturday. I now have to face these people, most of them for one of the last times, on Tuesday. And Tuesday, I'm not really sure how it will go down, but I'm nervous as hell. I've been told to put my game face on and act like I own the place. Supposedly, that will make me look good. I can only hope that my whole life doesn't go down the drain. I have to be able to stay on the team for another two years, and if this catches up with me next year, I'm afraid I might not have the pride, nor dignity,to continue with my swim career. I am still getting over this whole fiasco, but I will get over it. I've been told that I should be able to tackle this head on...and win. I guess I can only hope that I will...win.