"Family ties run deep in this land."

This is going to be a very,very random posting but...

     I guess I kinda always assumed that something would change. The way I think, the way I fell. Somewhere along the line, it would change. But it hasn't. So I guess I gotta confront my biggest fear, disappointing my father.
     Now, if you know my father, you realize that he doesn't have a good track record for when it comes to dealing with his problems. And if you know me, you know that I have been a usual cause for my father's problems.
     He always told me that, "When you have a child, you greatest fear is that they may do something wrong; And at that time, you feel like you have done something wrong, like you have screwed them up." I guess I always took those words to heart. I guess,  I was always afraid that I would make him feel that he's screwed up. Well, he hasn't.
     I can only hope that when I tell him the things I feel I need to tell him, he will realize that he hasn't screwed up at all. I believe that he will understand, and I believe that everything will go well.At least that's what I plan for.

More to come...